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Talk about getting caught with your pants down. my my.

 

I have such mixed feelings for today.

 

Anyway there was this drunk guy sitting behind me in the bus. and I was happily listenin’ to the new travis album when he started to puke! I guess I’m really thankful coz he was sitting right behind me, but he puked to the seat to his right.. and after that I shifted 1 seat forward and dropped some money. And this kind soul actually picked it up and returned it to me~ wa. the only word that came to my mind was.. Karma! I’m not saying I’m a real do-gooder but I know for sure that I would return money that I find.

Training gave me mixed emotions too. The warm-up was mother shag. and I swear I didn’t say “steph! there is something wrong with your face!” though i don’t quite remember what I said.. But thats not the point. So I walked steph to find her mom at NAFA. Walked her back. Tried my best to distract her from thinking about the swelling and the itch. I could tell that she was dying to scratch her face… and while it may not be good, it was kinda a blessing in disguise as I really got to talk to her for a good hour and a half. I think shes one of those keeper kinda friends. good stuff.

After I got her into her mom’s car, I went back to the CCA room.

Eh.. Well.. I guess its kinda my fault.. but… but… I’m just trying my best to be part of the team. Personally, (I had this tot in the shower), its really quite inconsequential whether I perform or not. I just dance cos I like it. I think thats about what there is to it. period. oh well oh well.. I’m sorry if I let the team down somehow but the downside risk is way lower in this case. Its better that I disappoint and not commit to perform than commit to perform and not be able to show up. ha. My bosses said (at st regis) that I can understand risk. is this it? heh. maybe. Maybe.

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Anyway since I’m in the mood for a little ramblings, shall write about the happenings at St. Regis.
Basically, the bosses brought me out for lunch. They asked me to lunch the day before and it was like JUST me. I seriously wondered what I had done wrong.. I could have sworn that they wanted to sack me. Ahhh. but I guess my fears were kinda unfounded.

The lunch at St. Regis was really nice. Wagu beef cheek. Plus really awesome earl grey and a high tea buffet.

They offered me to stay in Dragonfly for another year. I was really shocked. Whatttt. I kinda have 3 options;
a) I stay in DF till I grad, but get to do a summer internship out there. Placement follows.
b) I stay in DF for summer and till I grad, but they allow me to shadow any of their contacts in like the trading desk or what. Placement follows.
c) I end my contract at the initially stipulated time after year 3.

I guess the real draw or the real ego booster was that they said they’ve only done this for 1 intern and im the second one. wa. -head grows really big- And that there would actually do a placement and kinda guarantee my future employment. wa… a chance like this doesn’t fall from the sky every other day.

WA wa wa. Dilemma. =|

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On a seperate note (i’m on a roll here), I saw ahem ahem today… haps. but WASTED. ARGHHHHH. WASTEDD.. ARGH. WASTED. ARGH. Someone STAB ME PLEASE!!!!!! TNW TNW TNW! think TNW. THINK TNW!

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Slow dancing in a burning room is a nice song.. I can’t wait to watch the performance! (pressure pressure) Die die also must go watch sia. Just don’t put me through another 5 hours!

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<WARNING: the following paragraph uses fuck as a noun, verb and everything in between>
My mom fetched me home last night. Had a good talk with her last night. sometimes some family members suck. I have this fucking uncle who keeps taking money from us. like fucking all the time everytime. and he doesn’t want to get a fucking job! for like. 10 years already. fuck man. just found out like my grandma is borrowing money from the maid!? fuck la. fucking asshole. and my family has had so many fucking quarrels over this useless uncle. fuck la.
<ok fucking rant over>

yea. so was talking to my mom. She kinda made this comment about my job being underpaid and overworked. I guess its true to a certain extent, I guess I shouldn’t have been so defensive and rude. tsk tsk. nick. bad boy nick. but it was alright, I managed to amicably shove away the negative emotions and apologise. heh. good boy. was a good chat overall. yea. thanks mom.

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i’m in such a ranty mood tonight. I wonder why. Maybe its the tough warm ups. wah. I haven’t felt so freaking shag in sooo freakin long. My secondary school teacher used to say that exercise stimulates the mind. hmmm! okay. ranting mood over. Time to do some EF modeling den sleep lor. peace out

What a interesting week~!

A little bit of new school blues like senior. but it got rly better as the week progressed. Thurs at dinner with jx, jc, and et. which made it feel like old times… but we gotta be way more positive man.

thur had trng and preparing for vivace. quite fun. a lot of FAMILIAR faces ard~

and work had E ard! woo! company is always great. headed to see the bud again at night. was damn shag. but sometimes u need a friend.

den sat was lunch with the bosses. sad couldnt go trng. but there is nothing i could have done.. lunch was awesome though. and the food marvelous. went back to the office. had dinner at cha cha cha. holland v. den friends came over. one of the rare few times i get my friends over.

there was a little heart-of-stone drama after that.. but fuck it! woo. temptation is never easy to resistance . oh well..

its sunday! someone is coming back! haha

headache

In Chris’ text lingo, I hearts last night’s party.

lots of beer, old friends, jokes, games, and laughter.

on a side note, I’m so glad sis could appreciate my life right now. We kinda seem to be on the same boat right now. Oh yes, I’m sure our perspectives will change ten years down the road .. but we’re both SO enjoying what we do right now. So wat the heck! Cheers to life and friendship!

now now. hush hush

well.. I was just about the start a post about my sad pathetic life when I decided that this life shouldn’t be just about me. heh.

but I am too brain dead to think about what to say to you. so… zzzz..

 

but anw! I’m glad i’ve broken down some walls.. I love friends more than mean enemies.

fake happy! :)

ha. red cliff was really nice. don’t you just love a movie where the good guys are grossly outnumbered and they fight with wicked sick strategies/ passion for something on a moral high ground? like 300. like gladiator. like braveheart. (which happens to be my fav war movie of all time) nice… Am so glad I caught this show. good stuff.

It was really really windy at ecp last night. I don’t recall it feeling this cooling in a long while.

Did singfest end so late? I drove past the place at 1130 and we couldn’t hear anything. What a waste. Actually I think singfest would have been awesome. But i’m not of a travis/ melee/ lost prophets/ simple plan guy. not as much jason, PCD. though I think watching Jason M would have given me new passion. oh well. I wasn’t willing to pay 300 at the door.. and my current lifestyle doesn’t give me the flexibility of planning ahead much. =| I think the record should be ze 5h ballet performance i agreed a week in advance.

On a random note,
I think people are more susceptible to depression when alone; and especially alone during festive times. Life is quite a relative game. It kinda sucks when you’re sad and everyone else is happy and having fun. Its not so bad if there is someone as miserable and sharing your pain. Oh well. As they say, misery loves company!

oh my oh my

The last post was supposed to refer to my own suicidal morbid end, but as i took the left the office at 2 last night, I saw a row of empty cabs. When I finally found a ride back, I puzzledly asked, “what’s up with all the cab drivers tonight?”

He replied without batting an eyelid, “Oh tonight is the first night of the 7th month”.

wow. freaky.

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hmm. I’m having doubts about karma. I wanted to pay by nets so that I could get a receipt, but the driver requested I pay by cash coz he needed the money and NETS took at least 3 days to process. So out of kindness I did.
BUT…. The printing machine HAD to jam.. AND he didn’t know how to fix it nor print it again. sigh. Where is all the good karma? Or maybe karma is not instantaneous. I’ve probably generated too much negative karma in my younger and wilder days.

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last night social night wasn’t perfect, but it was great.
It kinda reminded me why I enjoy salsa so much… Like I’m not very good with the moves and everything; but I enjoy dancing. I enjoy grooving to the music and having a partner to do it with is just really enjoyable. And you’re welcomed felicia. for the reese And the can of pokka ice lemon tea. you’re welcomed partner!

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Training!

was slackly fun
felicia rocks.

alina.. semi rocks coz she doesn’t wan to invite me. and i can’t self invite myself to this one. sue could u pls bring me as your date. thanks. i’ll promise to bring my manners with me.

no appetite for dinner though. ate fruits. and still no appetite now. though i’m starving. hmmmm. i sense gastric juices oozing ard.

tomyam steamboat

yummy. I like. I used to have it with 2 bowls of rice, and 2 cups of lemon tea.
But we used to do a lot of things in the past don’t we? =)

Talked about some parts of the past which should have remained in the past. (Like how centro closed down and should remain closed down). I never knew I met you before. Oh well. Its v easy to blame things on poor memory isn’t it? ha. Parkway is always a place where you meet familiar faces. All the time. Thankfully didn’t see anyone that would have created an awkward situation. That won’t have been too pleasent.

Didn’t get my specs in the end =| I can never choose a nice frame. maybe i have not much confidence in my taste.. Or maybe i’m just more dependent on what others think. A crowd follower and crowd pleaser. ha. thats prob true. Ah. Door mat and brothel. I reckon a door mat is an upgrade… den again, the brothel probably has lotsa hot chicks in it if its in france.

okay. I’m in a rambling mood.
Must be the “zhai” coffee I just down-ed. Ahh the wonders of caffine. (which I reckon is damn bad for the teeth. I think I might have uneven shades after I removed my braces…) and yes, talkin’ about braces. Really. Its a good thing. seriously. Objectively. Don’t think just do. like the 10k run. ha. don’t die young hor.

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I think some of the optician’s words are true. some..

(L)

timbre
the good fellas
dingyi
tanny
CL
KK
Eugene
ym
grace.

enough said. =)