3 days to christmas

I think its time to rest and reflect.

 

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whos little m??

Even workaholics are human

5:50

tick tock. the sub-conscious mind refuses to take over. wth.

i wonder how im going to study tomorrow. think shag liao.

Agnosticism (Greek: α- a-, without + γνώσις gnōsis, knowledge; after Gnosticism) is the philosophical view that the truth value of certain claims — particularly metaphysical claims regarding theology, afterlife or the existence of deities, ghosts, or even ultimate reality — is unknown or, depending on the form of agnosticism, inherently impossible to prove or disprove.

sia la

someone is popular sia!

hurr.

ouch

Talk about getting caught with your pants down. my my.

 

I have such mixed feelings for today.

 

Anyway there was this drunk guy sitting behind me in the bus. and I was happily listenin’ to the new travis album when he started to puke! I guess I’m really thankful coz he was sitting right behind me, but he puked to the seat to his right.. and after that I shifted 1 seat forward and dropped some money. And this kind soul actually picked it up and returned it to me~ wa. the only word that came to my mind was.. Karma! I’m not saying I’m a real do-gooder but I know for sure that I would return money that I find.

Training gave me mixed emotions too. The warm-up was mother shag. and I swear I didn’t say “steph! there is something wrong with your face!” though i don’t quite remember what I said.. But thats not the point. So I walked steph to find her mom at NAFA. Walked her back. Tried my best to distract her from thinking about the swelling and the itch. I could tell that she was dying to scratch her face… and while it may not be good, it was kinda a blessing in disguise as I really got to talk to her for a good hour and a half. I think shes one of those keeper kinda friends. good stuff.

After I got her into her mom’s car, I went back to the CCA room.

Eh.. Well.. I guess its kinda my fault.. but… but… I’m just trying my best to be part of the team. Personally, (I had this tot in the shower), its really quite inconsequential whether I perform or not. I just dance cos I like it. I think thats about what there is to it. period. oh well oh well.. I’m sorry if I let the team down somehow but the downside risk is way lower in this case. Its better that I disappoint and not commit to perform than commit to perform and not be able to show up. ha. My bosses said (at st regis) that I can understand risk. is this it? heh. maybe. Maybe.

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Anyway since I’m in the mood for a little ramblings, shall write about the happenings at St. Regis.
Basically, the bosses brought me out for lunch. They asked me to lunch the day before and it was like JUST me. I seriously wondered what I had done wrong.. I could have sworn that they wanted to sack me. Ahhh. but I guess my fears were kinda unfounded.

The lunch at St. Regis was really nice. Wagu beef cheek. Plus really awesome earl grey and a high tea buffet.

They offered me to stay in Dragonfly for another year. I was really shocked. Whatttt. I kinda have 3 options;
a) I stay in DF till I grad, but get to do a summer internship out there. Placement follows.
b) I stay in DF for summer and till I grad, but they allow me to shadow any of their contacts in like the trading desk or what. Placement follows.
c) I end my contract at the initially stipulated time after year 3.

I guess the real draw or the real ego booster was that they said they’ve only done this for 1 intern and im the second one. wa. -head grows really big- And that there would actually do a placement and kinda guarantee my future employment. wa… a chance like this doesn’t fall from the sky every other day.

WA wa wa. Dilemma. =|

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On a seperate note (i’m on a roll here), I saw ahem ahem today… haps. but WASTED. ARGHHHHH. WASTEDD.. ARGH. WASTED. ARGH. Someone STAB ME PLEASE!!!!!! TNW TNW TNW! think TNW. THINK TNW!

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Slow dancing in a burning room is a nice song.. I can’t wait to watch the performance! (pressure pressure) Die die also must go watch sia. Just don’t put me through another 5 hours!

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<WARNING: the following paragraph uses fuck as a noun, verb and everything in between>
My mom fetched me home last night. Had a good talk with her last night. sometimes some family members suck. I have this fucking uncle who keeps taking money from us. like fucking all the time everytime. and he doesn’t want to get a fucking job! for like. 10 years already. fuck man. just found out like my grandma is borrowing money from the maid!? fuck la. fucking asshole. and my family has had so many fucking quarrels over this useless uncle. fuck la.
<ok fucking rant over>

yea. so was talking to my mom. She kinda made this comment about my job being underpaid and overworked. I guess its true to a certain extent, I guess I shouldn’t have been so defensive and rude. tsk tsk. nick. bad boy nick. but it was alright, I managed to amicably shove away the negative emotions and apologise. heh. good boy. was a good chat overall. yea. thanks mom.

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i’m in such a ranty mood tonight. I wonder why. Maybe its the tough warm ups. wah. I haven’t felt so freaking shag in sooo freakin long. My secondary school teacher used to say that exercise stimulates the mind. hmmm! okay. ranting mood over. Time to do some EF modeling den sleep lor. peace out

the risk of friendships

I tot of this title when I was bathing just now.

 

CT’s birthday was awesomely funny. and fun. and … nice..

ok random incoherent thoughts follow;

Risk, put in layman term’s, is just uncertainity. And uncertainty is definitely present in friendships.
Come to think of it, putting effort and time into a friendship is just like investing in a stock. The value of the stock , like friendship, is just a figure determined by both sides of the transaction. As the price of the stock increase, so does the strength of a friendship.

In life it is not as simple as looking at valuation models.. where the heart and feelings are involved, the equation becomes much more complicated.

Do friendships last forever?

I guess i’ve matured a bit from when I was in Sec sch/ JC. Friends were like the centre of my life at that point ..

and those people who walked into my life then are still here. but its just different i guess. Friends in which I see on a day to day basis and those of my younger days. I still see people like zhao n rus all the time though.

hmm. but sometimes the scariest part is not knowing what the other party thinks.

argh… the tots are too random and i’m too lazy to do structuring!

 

Actually let me write this proper.

or maybe not! haha

apple

i have this urge to go downstairs now and buy an ipod or itouch… but i resist ..

after talkin to a couple of people… i’ve decided on the iphone.. just have to find one now..

and wall-e wasn’t that bad actually.. its just the robot love thing.. not really my cup of tea.. And such a waste. i wasn’t prepared for what was coming. hahaa. BASKET.

different tunes, different moments

hello world,

I somedays wonder when I would come clean and open up to the rest of the world. heh. the secret lives we allhave.

today was a really tiring day. it was just a drain going to such a slow class. and even though i took a nap after twc, the fatigue was just there. hmm. i’m expecting to stay rather late tomorrow as well. oh well. hope the var lesson goes well.. caderas was shag also. rather strange. i was actually lookin forward to dance the entire week, but i was just damn shag to go full out for today.. hmm. the mind is so weak.

i had this sudden thought last night; that when I decide so, i’ll get the number, and i’ll just call and i’ll just see how it goes. woot.. confidence is always charming.

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i don’t like going to sleep hungry =|

What a interesting week~!

A little bit of new school blues like senior. but it got rly better as the week progressed. Thurs at dinner with jx, jc, and et. which made it feel like old times… but we gotta be way more positive man.

thur had trng and preparing for vivace. quite fun. a lot of FAMILIAR faces ard~

and work had E ard! woo! company is always great. headed to see the bud again at night. was damn shag. but sometimes u need a friend.

den sat was lunch with the bosses. sad couldnt go trng. but there is nothing i could have done.. lunch was awesome though. and the food marvelous. went back to the office. had dinner at cha cha cha. holland v. den friends came over. one of the rare few times i get my friends over.

there was a little heart-of-stone drama after that.. but fuck it! woo. temptation is never easy to resistance . oh well..

its sunday! someone is coming back! haha

oh my oh my

The last post was supposed to refer to my own suicidal morbid end, but as i took the left the office at 2 last night, I saw a row of empty cabs. When I finally found a ride back, I puzzledly asked, “what’s up with all the cab drivers tonight?”

He replied without batting an eyelid, “Oh tonight is the first night of the 7th month”.

wow. freaky.

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hmm. I’m having doubts about karma. I wanted to pay by nets so that I could get a receipt, but the driver requested I pay by cash coz he needed the money and NETS took at least 3 days to process. So out of kindness I did.
BUT…. The printing machine HAD to jam.. AND he didn’t know how to fix it nor print it again. sigh. Where is all the good karma? Or maybe karma is not instantaneous. I’ve probably generated too much negative karma in my younger and wilder days.

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last night social night wasn’t perfect, but it was great.
It kinda reminded me why I enjoy salsa so much… Like I’m not very good with the moves and everything; but I enjoy dancing. I enjoy grooving to the music and having a partner to do it with is just really enjoyable. And you’re welcomed felicia. for the reese And the can of pokka ice lemon tea. you’re welcomed partner!